Week 10 : The power of love ! Amazing discoveries about myself

Scroll 2 : “And most of all I will love myself. ” yes it seems quite common…love myself , love the others … quite easy to say and on the mean time not always easy to notice the real conséquences of these actions

But, by reading Scroll 2 I’ve  understood the importance to love ourselves with a widder perspective. I will go through the 3 main affirmations which makes me think differently… and experience a différent vision about that

• 1) “Henceforth will I love all mankind…I have not time to hate, only time to love. From this moment I take the first step required to become a man among men.”

I become a man among men – so I will love myself as much as the others… I’ve noticed that often I love more the others than myself and if needed I will put the others first… I’ve started asking me during this month of reading what would it change if I love myself more or as much as the others ?

• 2) “And most of all I will love myself. For when I do I will zealously inspect all things which enter my body, my mind, my soul, and my heart. ….. Never will I allow my mind to be attracted to evil and despair, I will uplift it with the knowledge and wisdom of the ages.”

How can I uplift the evil and despair by uplifting them with knowledge and wisdom of the ages?Not easy… for instance, I had to quit my job with high responsabilities in February to put my health in security. I had resisted 3 years out of 6 but they were blocking more and more my access to  information or giving me false information to put me on fault or even to make me do illegal things… they didn’t succeed because I became more and more vigilant over the years..i’ve also  tried as much as I can to be kind patient give comprehension to these persons, find solutions for improving the situation …but Nothing…

Love, goodwill and persistance wasn’t enough for overcoming this kind of situation !

I was stucked completely stucked in this work situation and Nothing was improving. It was even getting worst because this person protected by the direction wanted my job at any cost … My only solution was to leave the company ,  support the Financial conséquences of that and reduce a lot my level of expenses… Because Nothing has more value than me and my health… and I’m Nothing without health

I’ve started to listen to myself and admit it was an absolute necessity for me to leave this company because I’ve done everything that was possible and it was time for me to say stop to this situation ! In this experience I’ve also  learnt to start loving and respecting myself !

How can I now uplift this with more knowledge and wisdom of the ages?

I want to believe that this unfare situation will open new doors for me and enables me a wonderful future that I would never think It would have been possible if I have stayed in this company.

• 3) “I will greet this day with love in my heart.
  But how will I react to the actions of others? With love. For just as love is my weapon to open the hearts of men, love is also my shield to repulse the arrows of hate and the spears of anger. Adversity and discouragement will beat against my new shield and become as the softest of rains. ” (Scroll 2)

Yes I put love to these persons and the actions of these persons but it wasn’t enough … But… How love can repulse the arrows of hate and the spears of anger ? This wasn’t really clear for me and quite Strange…

The day before the last day of reading Scroll 2, I’ve understood this last  paragraph 3) with a different perspective.

When I was reading this sentence “But how will I react to the actions of others? With love” I was wondering what happened if it’s LOVE TO MYSELF FIRST (and not the others) …

I remember this moment when I was reading outloud the scroll 2 in front of a Mirror… When this comes up to me ! I was crying in front of the Mirror because yes ! I will not react with the same way. I wouldn’t have supported that for 3 years, I would have said no before…

Then,  I was saying :

“No” ….”Stop”… “Next”!

“No” ….”Stop”… “Next”!

praticing that in front of the Mirror with the correct move of my hand and the correct position of my head and my body for emphazising what I’m saying , and also the correct intonation of my voice…. I was repeating that maybe 20 times 40 times I have to idea… but that day  I made a promise to myself ! and as I always keep my promises… I will not let anyone or anything impacting me so much ! No way ! because  “From this moment all hate is let from my veins for I have not time to hate, only time to love”

This evening I read in front of the Mirror Scroll 2 with faith and enthousiasm maybe 8 times …yes because I wanted to print with GUSTO this new belief and the new perspective of life that this belief will enable me to have…

I was also saying YES to myself… Yes to life with my arms fully opened to my future self …

 

I was even singing : I Love myself, I love the others, I love life, I love nature, I love all the good thing that will arrive in my life…!

But also I’m whole perfect strong powerful loving harmonious and happy !

So now, I can fully say :

Thanks for reading !

And thanks for your support since the beginning of my Journey with MKMMA !

With love, faith and determination // Armelle